See me I feel. See me I live

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So relevant for this day. People have now idea how much this applies to my life.

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So I just came across this. This stranger is fucked up. I was so repelled by it that I had to share it with tumblr.

It’s not ok to talk your sexual partner into something he doesn’t want to do.

I tagged it as misogyny even though I am not sure if the stranger really is a migonyst or just a person who is violant towards women and/or endorses violence towards women. Does someone has to be a misogynist to be violant towards towards woman? I don’t know.

The truth is I tagged it as misogyny because I wanted the people, who follow this tag, to see it.

stfu9gag:

I want to start a camp, called “Camp Internalized Misogyny,” where I take these girls who post this shit on 9gag away for a week, make them s’mores and gimp bracelets and shit, and every night we sit around the camp fire and sing songs and talk about how the fucking outdated stereotyping that is fucking rampant on this fucking site has nothing to do with real “womanhood” and how your cutesy comments about how you’re obviously a “guy” because lol guys are awesome and what 9gag defines as a girl is stupid lol lol are doing nothing to advance the dialogue on gender roles and exhibiting an internalized misogyny that makes me want to take all of your s’mores away and throw them in the lake.

That and making little houses out of popsicle sticks. Those are awesome.

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Søren Kierkegaard, The Sickness Unto Death (via creatingaquietmind)

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Yes, fucking yes.

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morereasonsyoushouldntfuckkids:

[trigger warning: sexual abuse, rape, rape culture, suicide, incest]

A few weeks ago a friend of mine was looking for research subjects for a project on people’s reactions to the death of loved ones. I asked her, “what about other kinds of loss?” She said “no, sorry.”

In 22 years of life, I’ve never actually known anyone who died. But I have experienced death in other forms. I think sexual abuse is a kind of death— it kills a person’s sense of self, and it erases a lot of their possibilities for the future. Sexual abuse is a death of potential selves. Many of us can say with certainty that during our abuse, we would have preferred death over continuing to live. I know survivors who, because of their abuse, because of repressed memories, PTSD, and disassociation, no longer feel “alive” in this world. I’ve experienced that before myself…it’s something that can’t be explained, you just have to know it. Only survivors of trauma like this can know that. This is why we use the label “survivor”, because it really is that serious. You survive death and dying on a daily basis.

A lot of survivors attempt suicide or self-harm. Many of us end up experiencing death-by-proxy; we lose friends or family members, teachers and mentors, or concepts of love, justice, and good in the world. This is especially true for those of us who have experienced multiple abuses, or prolonged abuse over time, especially as children. It breaks you down until that’s all you know.

So when my friend told me that I couldn’t participate, I was disappointed. I was disappointed because people still do not see sexual abuse and rape as on the same plane as war and murder. They don’t understand it as a kind of death, and on many levels. I could never see the world in the same way. I could never see my brother, or my mother, or systems of justice, or race, or my sexuality, or my gender expression, in the same way. When I was abused, and as the society and people around me reacted to my abuse, all of these concepts fell apart.

Last year, I briefly entertained the idea of considering myself an orphan— because I’ve felt like one ever since my mother told me to “go ahead and kill yourself” and that it didn’t matter that my brother touched me, I still had to go to school. When I thought about grad school in the future, I realized that I could tell people that my brother was dead, or that I don’t even have a brother at all. I have considered dropping all connections to my family, because as far as I am concerned they hardly exist anymore— they might as well be dead.

There are times when I can’t afford the luxury of their even being in my world. They are too close to my abuse, too close to death.

I have said it before— sexual abuse and rape are a form of death, a death beyond death that reaches past the body and into the heart. It is not something that simply happens and then it goes away. It continues to actively destroy parts of yourself and your life, even after your abuser is gone.

I can’t remember being abused as a child but somehow I can relate to this. Even though I don’t self harm and there is some other stuff that does not exactly apply to me (and also the personal family experience of the author does not apply to me either). But still, I just feel like I know this feeling they are describing.

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crushedviolets:

Exactly what I was saying earlier. It’s that moment when shock wears off and pain moves right in.

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